Over the past few months, I’ve gained weight.
Its not something that a group fitness instructor or anyone who makes a career in the fitness industry likes to admit. That said, we are human too, with the very same struggles. I’ve gained enough weight that I’m not comfortable in my own skin, in spite of how others see me.
Struggling with a wrist injury, a busy schedule and not planning or choosing food properly, all the hard work that I I put in slowly unraveled. I’ve fallen into some old habit patterns, the ones that got me to this point, and I’m trying to avoid the patterns that I would have previously taken to “get out” of this situation.
One of my favorite quotes is by Robert Holden. We share often in our yoga teacher training and even in classes. He says that no amount of self-improvement can make up for a lack of self acceptance.
Today, I accept me, as a I am. Not where I want to be but knowing exactly where I want to go – not just physically, but in my path as a yoga teacher and fitness professional. This isn’t a resolution; I don’t do resolutions. I set goals and I go after them. The timing here is simply coincidental.
Accepting me, today, as I am and everything, today, as it is, will clear the way, the energy will flow and all this good shit that the universe has to offer will be even *more* available.
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It has been a long day.
It has been a long week.
I’m sitting here unwinding, thinking about everything I do on a daily basis.
I’m getting even more exhausted just thinking about it.
I don’t need to list out the things because if you are a mom reading this, whether you stay at home or work out of the home or work AT home (like me), then you know.
You know how it feels to try and hold on to the ONE thing that you can do for you. For some, it is taking 20 minutes during a rare moment of quiet and reading a book. For others, maybe its catching up on a mindless reality show.
For me? It is hands down, without question, my workout.
Sometimes, I second guess myself and think that it might be presumed to be a selfISH action. To have a personal fitness goal. But I forget and I have to remind myself – they are watching.
My workout isn’t selfish. While it benefits me in all the physical ways that we know exercise is proven to do, it also clears my head. It gives me focus to move on to the mile long to-do list. My workout benefits this whole household. And those small people? They see how important it is, to me, for me, for them.
I’m lucky if I get to squeeze in an extra 10 minute ab workout. I’m even luckier if I get to make it to the gym to actually TAKE a class, rather than just teaching one.
Its easy to lose focus on those personal interests and goals when everyone around you needs something – food, drink, attention, extra time. Those things all come first, all the needs are always met….but the non-negotiable is still my workout. Whether it is squeezed in during nap or while the littlest one helps “sweep” the floor, once there is a moment of still, I press play.
And after I’m done? I’m refocused. Recharged. Happier.
I know that it takes a big mental change, especially for moms, to come to the decision to make a lifestyle change. To be healthier, to set an example, to feel better overall. I can’t tell you do “just do it” or “schedule it” because we know that isn’t always the reality.
But I will tell you to take it one day at a time. Make it non-negotiable.
“I will work out twice this week.”
“I will go for a run on Saturday.”
“I will take a strength class at the gym this week.”
Set the small goals, achieve them, feel successful and build the habit. A habit is just like a muscle – you need to work at it to make it strong.
You deserve it. Because it isn’t just for you.